“I Don’t Remember”
Aedre’s Firefly Chapt VII: Choices (Part 22)
In last week’s strip an apparently very concerned Shack Man, asked Aedre when it was she last ate anything. Those tummy grumbles are always a dead giveaway!
She seems reluctant to tell him the truth, however. Is it because she’s still scared of him? Because she’s afraid he’ll side with her father and blame her? Or is she afraid of being seen to be pathetic or vulnerable? What would you do? Gloss it over? Or blurt it out?
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Process
Got another strip into the queue this week, and untangled a few more knots in the storyline. It really doesn’t help in this business to have a poor memory for anything but graphic/visual details. lol Therefore, I often get lost when there doesn’t seem to be enough connecting thumbnails between some of the strips. It often feels like I have to create the whole graphic novel in thumbnails first before ever starting to pencil or ink. But its too late for that in this story, so I just have to stop inking and fill in with new thumbnailed strips to fill the gaps.
Not sure if the above made sense. If not let me know, k?
Other News
Ideas
I finally got out of the house for the first time in (if memory serves) over a month. Mal, Zorra and I met for dinner at Asia Cuisine in Ithaca and chatted about the upcoming release of our new iOS developer’s tool for Unity3d.
I aired my latest app design idea, which after some confusion was understood to be a small project of my own, that I may or may not hire another programmer to code for me. At some point. In the future. Maybe. :`)
I’m an ideas person. I can not only generate ideas, but can add complexities so fast it will make your head spin (one of the problems I have with creating Aedre’s Firefly!). I’m at my very best in brainstorming sessions. But I need to have reality checks placed on many of the ideas that spring forth from my overactive imagination. Thanks goodness Mal and Zorra are especially good at this in the eOe arena. :`)
So yeah. I never expected that eOe would develop my app idea, and in that I was correct.
When I get an app idea I write it up. Share it. Let it sit. Break it into smaller and smaller pieces, then see if it still excites me. If not, I leave it at that. And with such a small team of developers all with “day-jobs”, we have to be careful about what we’ll be spending our time working on. I’m not disappointed. The idea is (along with the last twenty ideas) written down and could be revisited at any time.
Comments
I have been particularly moved by your comments lately, as Aedre’s story unfolds. One in particular stood out for me last week, and as it was a late comment, I thought I’d post it here. Mal was responding to the question posed in the blog:
What about you? Do you often bite your tongue to prevent escalation of painful emotional dynamics? Or do you fall into old behavior patterns?Here’s Mal’s comment:
I think Mal should write a personal “Words to the Wise” blog. Don’t you? ♥
Todd’s Sketch for Winning the Aedre’s Firefly Christmas Caption Contest
Is finally on its way to Mr. McElmurry. In fact he may have received it by now. Hope you like it Todd! thanks for your patience with my needing to redo the whole thing.
Where can I get appropriate packaging supplies?
And on that note I have to tell you that trying to find appropriate packaging supplies for artwork is a real PITA. Just looking for a simple 1/8 inch thick pressed cardboard to use as a backing insert for sending the art through the mail so it doesn’t get destroyed in its travels was a hair-tearing exercise! I finally resorted to tearing the backs from two of my 9×12″ Bristol pads to use to sandwich Todd’s sketch. Sheesh!
The closest I could find to the size I needed was almost half an inch thick! And anything less than that thickness was too flimsy. And to top it all off everything was in points, and had to be translated to English ;`P ( 72 points =1 inch) Had to look up the conversion. Learned it all once in college but never needed to remember it.
So if you can point me to a place where I can find 9×12-inch uncorrugated cardboard ( or, a.k.a. pasteboard) 1/8 inch thick, please let me know. Thanks!
Aedre’s Easter Caption Contest Coming Up.
I have a rough sketch done for it. I do hope I can get it finished quickly enough for it to be ready, since Easter (I just found out) falls in March this year. *sigh*
Summer Guest Art Needed for Aedre’s Firefly
And on that note, I’m starting to think about summer and vacations this year. So I was wondering if any of you would be interested in creating a spot of Guest Art for me, featuring Aedre, or if you prefer, one or more of the Aedre’s Firefly characters already introduced.
If you can help me out, I’d need the art roughly by the first week of May and I’ll be most grateful. Or if you want to send it to me sooner, I’ll get it in the queue right away for the correct date of publication. Thanks for considering this.
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Thanks for reading Aedre’s Firefly
and for your encouraging comments! <3



Man, these flash backs make us long ever more for Aedre to never leave the shelter of the cabin and the Gorge.
Very well put Mal.
I’ve not received it yet Jande, but I’m sure it will be here any day now. I’m looking forward to seeing it with much excitement. I’ll post some pics on twitter when I get it.
Yes, Todd, the Cabin seems idyllic compared to Aedre’s life at home. Perhaps that’s why she’s so confused.
I do hope you’re not disappointed by the sketch. I’m out of practice with inking in real media that I’m not perfectly happy with the final outcome. But then I never am. lol And now, as Mal says, “It is what it is”. You should be getting it today or tomorrow.
Oh, yeah, Aedre needs to not return to those wonderful parental units of hers.
I agree. But then, where would she go?
Thanks for taking the time to comment when you’re in the middle of such chaos as moving house creates, Andy!
I have always thought that making a child go to bed without supper was not a punishment but a form of child abuse. Of course I don’t think the idea of being abusive would bother Aedre’s parents.
Sometimes I fail to comment on how good your Art is and you are one of the best. The reason I fail to comment on the visuals is that it is only one scene among the many I see of Aedre each week. This is a great story and a story teller sometimes has a difficult time waiting for the next scene so I sometimes fill in many blanks in with my own imagination.
Over the past couple of years that I have been reading Aedre I have become quite attached to her and when I think of her I can’t help but think of the countless others like her. Sometimes I read about them and their sad stories on the news. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of one in the store, or sitting in a car and I feel so hopeless because there is nothing I can do.
Mal should really consider a blog, however, it is not usually the wise that need a word but those of us who haven’t got a clue.
9×12 pasteboard is hard to come by. I used to have tons of 81/2 by 11 because there used to be two sheets in most reams of printing paper. Now I have no idea where that is.
Sorry, I feel as if I’ve rambled but I am old and gettin’ senile so I guess it might be permitted.
I really appreciate your kind words, Bo, about the art and the story.
“[...] when I think of her I can’t help but think of the countless others like her.”
Thank you. I, too, have feelings of helplessness/hopelessness in the face of evidence of a child being abused and/or neglected. Abuse comes in many forms. Sometimes it’s not even the parent’s fault. They are ignorant. As a wise man once said “They known not what they do.” But it is their responsibility until it become the responsibility of the abused to heal themselves and stop the cycle.
I used to try to come to the rescue whenever I saw it happening, but I learned that it often makes things worse for the child.
As far as the pasteboard is concerned I think it would be wiser for me to reduce the size of the Bristol I work with before drawing on it. I can easily cut my larger sheets down so that I could use 8.5×11 pasteboard for the inserts. I don’t think people will mind getting a slightly smaller sketch. :`)
And yeah, us old folks can get away with a lot more by getting a bit senile. ;`)
Thanks for the lovely long comment. I enjoyed it. ♥
That’s one flashback none of us will ever forget!
Agreed. It’s the kind of experience that digs deep into the psyche. Some wounds never fully heal.
Wow, what an abusive flashback! No wonder Aedre is wary of anyone. If you can’t even trust your family….
Yes, George. It’s amazing how the dysfunctional dynamics get handed down from generation to generation, breeding distrust and worse.
Great visuals for the flashback scene. I love those cool particle effects!
I hope Aedre stays for lunch. It looks like she could use a hot meal. Or a meal of any kind, for that matter. She had no supper the night before and, unless I miss my guess, she had no breakfast either. I suspect “bed without supper” has been used before. There are lots of ways to mess with a child’s head, and Aedre’s parents seem to have quite a large repertoire.
Aw, shucks, thanks for featuring my previous comment Jande. I’m honored that you found it noteworthy. 8^) Someday I’d like to create an on-line journal for sharing my thoughts. You may notice that I have carefully avoided using the “b” word here. It’s such a short and ugly little word to refer to what can be a profound sharing of one’s thoughts, feelings, and insights. Of course, given that an awful lot of what gets shared on the interwebz is neither particularly profound or insightful, but may be fully laden with a payload of ugliness, perhaps the “b” word is not so out of place. Still… considered as a piece of language, it has all the aural appeal of the family pet bringing up its breakfast on the new sofa.
So, when I do start an on-line journal thinggummy, my first entry will have to be something along the lines of “Bl*g: It’s a four letter word”. ;^)
Blog does sound kinda barfy now that you mention it. Kurt and Burt had a little something to say about profound in today’s comic. Insightful is a good word though. Now that I think of how I just spontaneously post stuff on my website I reckon it would qualify as a blog. :)
That’s it. When I closed my comment I had a “profound” “insight”. Mine is a blog because what you find on it is whatever I “throw up”.
LOL! Well, you know what they say: “One dog’s breakfast is another dog’s lunch.” Mind you, I don’t know who “they” are, but I felt it wise to distance myself somewhat from the quote, given that it could be interpreted as a wee bit on the disgusting side. Hence it was “them” as said it. Nothing to do with me. :P
Anyway, I like the stuff on your site Bo, whatever you call it.
Children are often very reluctant to talk about abuse. Even worse is when they do talk about it and the supposed “responsible adults” don’t believe them. That sort of thing leaves long lasting scars…